Why I am Not Worthy
I had planned to write today about how a Christian woman should measure her worth. My tendency has always been to give myself “grades” on how well I am doing life. When my kids were young, it was about how well they behaved, how well they dressed, how clean the house was, and what kind of hostess I was. That is changing for me. Teenagers dress the way they want to and leave the carefully shopped for clothes in their closets with the tags still on.
I have learned through some very hard times, that the behavior of my kids doesn’t directly correlate to my parenting. They are people separate from me. If my worth comes from them, I will never feel worthy.
So I was ready to write about how loved we are by God (and we are). I wanted to make myself feel better with Scripture verses carefully chosen. I was going to point out that we are made in the image of God (which we are). I wanted write that we are worthy, we are great, we are special.
Then I realized we aren’t worthy. Not without Christ’s righteousness to cover our sinful state.
So today I can’t write a pep talk. Maybe that message has made us selfish and self-centered. Rather than changing how I measure my worth, I’m going to stop measuring my worth.
When I think about my worth, I am thinking about myself.
When I think about my worth, I am not serving God.
When I think about my worth, I am not worshipping God.
When I think about my worth, I am not glorifying him.
But when I think about God instead, my worth stops mattering.
Of course I am worth so much to God. He loved me enough to save me from this evil world. But why am I expending energy thinking about myself?
When I get down about myself, the solution is not to remind myself how great I am.
When I get down about myself, the solution is to remind myself how great God is.
What about you? Have you been focusing too much on yourself?